Bright Lights

It's nice sitting in your head when it's all quiet. You get to look around. No rushing, no others' thoughts to cloud it or try to push in. Just quiet.

So much more to see.

So much more to hear. Every scuffle echoes and ripples and morphs.

I like it here again. I want to invite people to come over.

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