Anything is possible
These past 2 months have brought with them a kaleidoscope.
Internal me's have been morphing and growing at a rapid pace...it's..well...quite wonderful really. Although these things always come with very hard decisions that need to be made.
I have seen my musical idols live on stage, and although they are just people who play musical instruments really well...it seemed to have been one of the catalysts to this change. I don't think I will ever be the same from that....maybe only because I saw for the first time that anything is possible? The lump in my throat confirms it.
Friday night past brought with it another Neverland person who shares my maiden surname. I had fun...proper, proper fun, the kind of fun I can only barely remember. The Pan person had inputs too. I was free :) I flew again, with kindred people. I think that has been the final catalyst. Hmm...also the final push to show me that anything is possible. To have that kind of fun again..I realise now that I didn't think I ever would. What a silly thing to think. I CAN fly by myself :)
I've reconnected with old friends too. One has already dropped off again it seems...but...hey yeah there you go...another light on the "anything is possible" path.
My weight is dropping so quickly too, I'm not sure why it was there in the first place? Of course that is bringing confidence too. Didn't know it was possible to drop this much weight, so quickly, without being unhealthy!
I was wondering what the Universe has been trying to tell me, think I finally figured it out...duh. Anything is possible.
I...wow this is hard for me to type. I am proud of me, of the person I am. For the first time in my life. I can truly take strength from myself and not need to receive the reassurance of my closest. It makes me sad too because I have to be so terribly selfish now.
The real me....not the me trying so hard to break free, not the one I can only glimpse...ME. Pan me. Time for that tattoo :) I don't feel caged anymore.
Never scared :)
Thank you to those who have helped get me this far, even me.
Internal me's have been morphing and growing at a rapid pace...it's..well...quite wonderful really. Although these things always come with very hard decisions that need to be made.
I have seen my musical idols live on stage, and although they are just people who play musical instruments really well...it seemed to have been one of the catalysts to this change. I don't think I will ever be the same from that....maybe only because I saw for the first time that anything is possible? The lump in my throat confirms it.
Friday night past brought with it another Neverland person who shares my maiden surname. I had fun...proper, proper fun, the kind of fun I can only barely remember. The Pan person had inputs too. I was free :) I flew again, with kindred people. I think that has been the final catalyst. Hmm...also the final push to show me that anything is possible. To have that kind of fun again..I realise now that I didn't think I ever would. What a silly thing to think. I CAN fly by myself :)
I've reconnected with old friends too. One has already dropped off again it seems...but...hey yeah there you go...another light on the "anything is possible" path.
My weight is dropping so quickly too, I'm not sure why it was there in the first place? Of course that is bringing confidence too. Didn't know it was possible to drop this much weight, so quickly, without being unhealthy!
I was wondering what the Universe has been trying to tell me, think I finally figured it out...duh. Anything is possible.
I...wow this is hard for me to type. I am proud of me, of the person I am. For the first time in my life. I can truly take strength from myself and not need to receive the reassurance of my closest. It makes me sad too because I have to be so terribly selfish now.
The real me....not the me trying so hard to break free, not the one I can only glimpse...ME. Pan me. Time for that tattoo :) I don't feel caged anymore.
Never scared :)
Thank you to those who have helped get me this far, even me.
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